Reflective practice is a cornerstone of pediatric hematology/oncology nursing—strengthening team collaboration, elevating standards of care, and supporting the emotional well-being of nurses. Its benefits are far-reaching, touching not only the nurses themselves but also the young patients and families they care for. Reflective Practice Corner is a standing section in The RePORTer—POGO’s Nursing Newsletter—featuring reflections from nurses across the province and offering insights into their experiences. It also invites readers to pause and consider the questions posed.
Clare Holton has been a registered nurse for five years and found her passion for pediatric oncology two years ago when she joined the pediatric oncology team at McMaster Children’s Hospital, Hamilton Health Sciences.
What lessons have you learned from your patients?
It is a privilege to care for children and their families as they navigate the challenges and milestones of the cancer journey. Every day offers something meaningful, especially through the invaluable lessons I have learned from my patients, which cause me to pause and reflect.
I remember caring for a five-year-old patient with neuroblastoma. His love for the small things in life and his ability to live for the moment were truly inspiring. His perspective was untainted by fear or doubt. This was truly a breath of fresh air and a resounding lesson in resilience. There was something profoundly inspiring in this patient’s unshakeable hope and pure-hearted view on life. He had a strong fighting spirit and a bright outlook that resonated with everyone around him. I remember walking into his room after he had several grueling days of chemotherapy. I heard Elton John’s “I’m Still Standing” playing and there he was playing with his race cars quietly singing along. That moment stuck with me, reminding me that even on our hardest days we can still stand on our own two feet and keep moving forward, even if it’s small steps. This has become one of the most powerful lessons I have learned working in pediatric oncology: to be hopeful, keep going, and never underestimate the strength found in resilience. Every time I hear that song, I think of this patient and his unwavering spirit, brightness, and strength in the highs and the lows. I carry this memory, especially on my own tough days, as a reminder of the incredible courage and resilience of the patients we care for.
How do you prioritize self-care?
While caring for my patients is my priority, on my days off I like to spend time in nature, reading, and at my family cabin with my family and with my dog. Working in an acute, fast-paced, and unpredictable environment is challenging at times especially during 12-hour shifts. I encounter both ups and downs, and I frequently experience emotionally difficult situations. On my days off, I really take advantage of doing the things I enjoy. I also engage in mindfulness and reflective practices to support a healthy work-life balance. This is important to me so that I can continue to provide family-centered compassionate care. I try to incorporate the same mindfulness into the workplace by embracing the ability to “take things as they come” while balancing it with the planning and the structure my job requires.
How do you stay motivated and inspired on tough days?
Caring for a child with cancer means supporting the entire family unit. One of the most difficult parts of this role is to navigate the delicate balance of offering hope with the reality of their diagnosis. I aim to be honest while maintaining compassion, giving the families space to process. It is a balance of holding hope while also preparing for the worst possible outcomes, and I try to walk that line with humility and grace.
Clare Holton, RN, has been a registered nurse for five years. She found her passion for pediatric oncology when she joined the pediatric oncology team at McMaster Children’s Hospital, Hamilton Health Sciences.
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